To thrive with ADHD, you really have to accept it and change your mindset about it. It’s not a benefit in all environments, but there are many great qualities of each individual, even those with ADHD. Move past thinking about how you feel about having ADHD by working through those emotions. That alone will lift a weight off your shoulders.
There are a couple great ADDitude Webinar replays on this:
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