Misery, we’re just regular folks here, and you gave a lot of information
in your post. In addition, you didn’t actually ask any questions for
people to respond to.
I can tell you that when I begin to feel overwhelmed, as you do, I take
a break, go somewhere quiet, take a few deep breaths and get my stuff
Being angry and stressing about past events doesn’t do a darn thing for
your future. My personal philosophy is that the past is what it is, and
other than apologize to anyone I may have offended, what’s done is done,
and there’s not a thing I can do about it, so, why make myself miserable
stressing over it?
Keep in mind I’m just some old guy with ADHD, but my advice would be
to see a competent MD or Psychologist that is familiar with Adult ADHD.
FWIW, I’d also suggest not bedding any more insane people; it’s a recipe
for disaster. Don’t play their games…if there’s no relationship and nothing
to discuss, then just say “Goodbye”, and move on with your life.