Hi. I definitely identify. Daily pot honestly helped me more than antidepressants. But, I did see where I still couldn’t do detailed tasks, pick up social cues, and several other things. I tried the stimulants and I would have the best 6 hours of my life and then end up crying and unable to get up off the floor. And no, extended release didn’t help.
What has helped is strattera and Wellbutrin. The function differently than the stimulants or ssri’s. While I would occasionally live to have a smoke to chill, I don’t think about it like I used to. That deep relaxing breath that says it will be ok when you smoke- I don’t need that now because the spring inside me has finally loosened up and stayed that way. Best of luck.