Thank you all for your kind words. I think I just get overwhelmed. I’ve honestly been trying to get out of that job for a while, but it’s a money thing, as is the reason why I don’t go to therapy anymore. I can afford medication OR therapy, and therapy wasn’t working. I just don’t know anyone with adhd, and I feel like even the people who care and try (like my wonderfully patient fiance) don’t really fully get it, and can’t fully. Because I think that you can read and learn all you like, but that doesn’t make it less hard to be with someone who has adhd even if you know the reasons why. It’s hard to not get stuck thinking that things wont get better.