It sounds like you do have what’s called dysphoria like I do. You usually need a med to handle your depression and one to handle dysphoria. You should talk to your Doctor about it. Effexor, Pristiq and Wellbutrin are all really good at treating that and so is marijuana. If your Doctor wants you to quit marijuana first then I recommend just telling them you did so you can get meds that will actually help you. Read about Dysphoria too obviously and check and see if all the symptoms match up. The two go hand and hand with depression but that’s not always the case. Also talk to them about a prescription to cannabis too although that can be a hard sell depending on your Doctor. Let me know how things go.