I’m going to go back and read all the replies but I want to say that here’s another person with lifelong friend problems. I don’t know why but by now, I’ve pretty much accepted that people aren’t going to be a big part of my life, and I find other satisfactions. I have my house and my garden and my books, things like that, and if I keep busy I interact with the world and it responds to me–often better than people have done.