Hi, I’m sorry to hear about your struggles. Honestly, I agree with your psychiatrist about three danger of substance abuse, I have seen it but too often BUT there’s other meds that are not stimulating that would totally help! Have you tried antidepressants for example? My aunt uses those and they have the same effect for her as stimulants do for other people. Also, is there a coping therapy group somewhere near you? I joined one and it has been most helpful. Be blessed, hopefully you’ll get what you need soon!