randomly my relationship with the medical community is really sensitive due to some bad experiences I had as a child. I am trying to get help on this but I definitely feel skeptical of everything I’m being told and sometimes resent myself for medicalizing my problems.
A funny thing is I don’t resent other people for getting medical help with mental health issues, and I even encourage them to do just that. I’m not sure why I hold myself to a different standard. Some of it has to do with this feeling that I just suck and why should anyone else care. Maybe that’s something else for me to work on.