Hey there natnat,
First of all- well done for reaching out! It’s great that you recognise there’s something you’re unhappy about, and that you’re asking for help in understanding what’s going on.
First things first- it does sound very much like you suffer from ADHD, and given that you’ve received a prescription for ADHD medications, your specialist seems to think so, too. There are lots of different coping strategies you can adopt that won’t FIX the problem, but they can certainly make it easier to deal with.
Secondly- it’s very common that people don’t get along with the first medication they try. But there are actually about 50 different adhd medications out there. A lot of people that don’t do well with Ritalin respond well to Adderall, or Strattera. And if you don’t hold well with stimulants, there are also plenty of different non-stimulant ADHD medications. The idea is that, if you have a bad experience with one, you try the others, and more and more until you either rule them all out, or find one that works for you. While it certainly doesn’t feel like it while you’re on a medication that just isn’t working for you, once you find the RIGHT ADHD medication, LIFE gets easier. I’ve only been on Ritalin for a month (it works for me), and I’m happier, more confident, more outgoing, I’m less stressed, and I’m getting more work done to a higher standard in less time than I did before I started on my meds. It’s not a perfect solution, and I still have some issues, but overall, it’s a hell of a lot better than what I was doing before.
In your case, I’d recommend going back to your doctor, discussing your experiences, and suggest trialling a different medication.
Hope this helps 🙂