I understand the hesitation but I am so happy to be on medication. It reminds me of Cyclops on Xmen. When I am off my meds I have all this creative energy and enthusiasm that I can’t do anything with because I am either paralyzed by how much I want to do or completely scattered. With meds I still have the creative energy, but I can focus in on it well enough to get it started and most importantly, finished. Just like Cyclops wearing glasses to control his superpowers lol.
Give it a try. You can always stop if you’d like. For me it has been a miracle and I am still me. I will tell you the first week or so I experienced side effects (mood swings and exhaustion when the meds wore off) that made me wonder if I wanted meds after all, but they disappeared.