Also have a father who was extremely hard on me verbally, who i realise now was also suffering from non diagnosed adhd.
His negativity and aggression really shaped my adolescent life and made my shy personality even worse. Even now as a 46yr old when i am in his presence i feel about 12yrs old again. As i have only just been diagnosed at a fairly late age i am finding the cbt really tough and struggling with dependancy still.
The medication is helping but it feels like all of the coping mechanisms i have built up over the years have really built a wall around me that is hard to break down so that i can think and react like a ‘normal’ person.
FML has been a constant thought for me, ADHD is like a biological weapon for your mind.