As I read this it makes me so sad. I really don’t have much advice. I will share that I have a very critical parent, no father around ever. I was raised by a single parent. It’s not easy working so hard with our ADHD, and working with negative authority figures. I also have depression and it can make me feel numb, at times. I wish you could get out on your own. I wish you nothing but peace of mind and know that we understand and you’re not alone.