You’re not alone. I was diagnosed in middle school, but because of the stigma and shame I felt, I did not stay on medication long through school. Getting someone to treat me once I was in college and overwhelmed by my symptoms was a struggle. I went through 4-5 doctors over the course of a couple of years before finally going to a psych doc. This was after college and I was struggling in the office landscape.
Some doctors refused to treat with stimulant medication, because they didn’t want to be responsible for it. I had a different doctor prescribe the minimum dose once a day, and said if that didn’t help to go see a psychiatrist. I’ve been made to feel like I was lying, that I was fishing for stimulant medication, even with having a prior diagnosis.
It’s tough finding the right doctor, there are a lot of doctors that are still very misinformed. Please keep trying, you will find a doctor that will understand and listen.