I understand how you feel. I am in my late 50’s and the first doctor I saw blew me off. I have now been taking medicine for adhd for about 9 months and this is the best I’ve ever felt. I still am not as organized as I would like to be, but it takes time to organize 50 years of possessions and clutter. I’m really glad I persevered and found a doctor that really listened to what I was saying and feeling. You can do this. Don’t give up as you are worth it.