I'm 40 years old. I've had ADHD my entire life. I was diagnosed in my early 20's. Have gone through CBT and am on medication.

4 1/2 years ago I met my now ex. He has his own issues which unraveled my management techniques for my ADHD. We have been broken up 6 months and I am struggling to get my ADHD back under control.

During this struggle to manage my ADHD I'm now seeing things I never saw before. I see how this disorder has impacted my life. I see how it's impacted career choices. I see how it's messed with a whole variety of relationships and even contributed to losing lovers and friends.

I can truly say that no aspect of my life as been unaffected by ADHD. I'm tired and worn out. I'm sick of dealing with this. I would give anything to go through a single day without having to worry that I'm going to say the wrong thing or not get anything accomplished or forget something (and I forget EVERYTHING). I would love a day where I wasn't being overwhelmed by the world around me, where I could filter what was going on and just focus. I'm tired of having to keep my emotions from running across my face because most of the time what is on my face is so fleeting that it means nothing to me. But it may mean a great deal to someone else.

I've started seeing a therapist to assist me with this, but the truth is, I'm tired of fighting this battle. At my age, if I haven't outgrown it, I never will.

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