I have googled till my fingers hurt looking for any information regarding CAPD for ADULTS!! I found a multitude of information about children but nothing for me!

I was not officially tested and diagnosed with ADD until I was an adult but I was very lucky in my career before I started out on my own - I worked in Accounting for a children's charity. When I disclosed that I had ADD every possible accommodation was made for me.

I started my own company working from home and thought 'Perfect! No distractions!! I'll be a productivity MACHINE!" Working from home turned into a nightmare - having to talk on the phone to clients. I would always start off with the best intentions...cup of tea, clean notepad, pen that worked, cordless phone battery charged and after a good 40 minute phone conversation with lots of planning and details I'd hang up, look down and see that all I'd done was scribble lines boxes and stars.

Worse then that - I could only recall fragments of a conversation that I knew I had won over a client with. OMG, pure panic! What did I say I would do? What did they tell me they wanted? This happened again and again and again!! Why not just correspond through email? Because when you work virtually, never meeting your clients they want to connect and discuss in a more personal way.

Despite the phone issues, I was starting to be considered an expert in my field. Woohoo?? Not quite...then the requests stated rolling in for me to appear as an expert on webinars and teleseminars. I would be nauseous with anxiety. Although I was always congratulated about how great of a job I did and invited back for more 'appearances', the memory loss created such fear and self doubt, I stopped doing it all together.

Wow, my self esteem took a real beating! It was like I would just zone out. The memory loss was terrifying and depressing.

This has gotten so bad I had decided to pack it in and get a job.

What the hell is wrong with me?

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