diagnosed at 52 after I stopped smoking and it answered so many questions i had; primarily why I was always so different and never 'fit' in to the norm. I started with Concerta and it made me way to anxious so switched to vyvanse and thinking it's just not for me - feel depressed and less motivated with it than without (for example, a beautiful day and I have plants to plant and i'm sitting in here writing on a post).

One of the biggest surprises I found is that when I am on medication i see how my family, and some friends, actually take advantage of me and cross my boundaries, and I'm finding that I just don't want to be around them as much (family) and I don't feel obligated anymore to do all the stuff I've done and I'm pretty tired of being guilt tripped and shamed. They are not dealing well with the changes I'm making and it's just hard all around. hard to know how different my life could have been and what will i do with what i have left. My job will go away next march and i'll be 55 and i have no idea what to do, except i'll be scrambling once again and I'm so tired...just so tired of all the effort to fit in, be like the rest, be a good corporate citizen...sigh sorry for the pity party - tough day

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