Left my last job in December. Harassed, bullied, and nitpicked by the manager, I walked out realizing there was no end in sight. Now I have no motivation I can scrape up. If I manage to get an interview, I am so overwhelmed with anxiety I can't think, except - what will be different here. Same BS, different place. Then that turns in to, this job sounds really boring - what the hell am I doing here? And I just want to go home and go back to bed.

It seems like people smell insecurity on me and I end up being a punching bag. My last supervisor would ream me in front of everyone and I'd just let her. Why can't I say, you're out of control. Go get some air and when you're ready we can discuss this in private? I'd let her rant on and on hoping she'd hear herself, realize what she was doing and shut up. As time went by it happened more. Why can't I stand up for myself? I'd love some-any advice. Thanks

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