I'm new to the site and just thought I'd get something out there about my problems and see what advice people have to give me. I'm male and I'm 26. As soon as I started school they realised that I was different. Behind in development or whatever. They took a long time giving me appointments with different people, the teachers had thought I was dyslexic, but any specialist of any sort would say it was definately not dyslexia. after a couple of years, giving me different tests and such, they eventually diagnosed me with dyspraxia. I remember lying on the tests all those years ago. If a question really hit home, I was too proud to admit it..

So I was given extra help in school, all catered around dyspraxia. As you can imagine it did help a little, but a lot of the time made me feel isolated from the other children. I ended up having a pretty lousy time in school. Constantly on the edge of expulsion. In every teachers bad books before they'd even taught me. I once had a music teacher in secondary school tell me that I wasn't as bad as he was expecting, after hearing about me in the staff room. But I've always loved music. I play 3 instruments now.

So anyway, I went through all the usual adhd school hell, completley undiagnosed. I somehow made it into sixthform doing a business nvq, then got expelled. Since then I've been bandying about from job to job, I follow the usual pattern of being employee of the week for the first two weeks and then falling apart, becoming distracted. Putting off tasks that take more thjat a seconds thought. Coming in late every single day. Over the years I've managed to develop the gift of the gab a bit, and can usually convince jobs to give me "one more chance" about 500 times. But still, I've never worked anywhere longer than a year. Usually no longer than a few months.

I just can't keep a job. I just can't get up. The longer I work somewhere the more and more sleep deprived I get which eventually leads to depression. Almost a year ago now I got a job in a charity for kids with adhd and everything clicked. I realised that I have ADHD and that was why I'm having so many problems. and it's not just the job stuff.

My house and my finances are in as mush as a mess as the rest of my life. I'm addicted to cannabis. I'm obsessed with a girl I know to an extremeley unhealthy level. I seem to get myself in violent incidents approximatley once a year. Recently a security guard at a supermarket apprehended me roughly and a violent struggle ensued. Up untill the point the security guard grabbed me I was completley innocent. I'm now being charged with assault. I've just had two thousand pounds in compensatiion for a pesronal injury and spent it in a weekend. I managed to pay my rent and buy a new saxophone, so that was £900 well spent but the rest just went on drinking and smoking and food and taxi's etc. I didn't even get myself a pair of trainers. I've been wearing boots every day for months. Now it's all gone and I owe money out.

Whilst working at the charity I found out the name of the only doctor in the region that diagnoses adults with ADHD. I've been to my GP and he agreed to refer me but that GP was the one by my mums house. I had long moved out of there and so have my parents. I explained about how I have problems with landlords and I never really live anywhere long enough to justify keeping on changing doctors and he agreed to send the referal letters to my granmothers house. But they never came. So, I ended up changing doctors and registering everything at my current address so that the letters would come. But now my problem is that I can't get up at 8.20 to call and book an appointment and the new docs doesn't have as many places on other dates that you can book if you call in the afternoon. So I can't get an appointment.

Any advice on coping with my adhd, getting diagnosed faster, or any other advice would be much appreciated. It's just good to get stuff off my chest really.

Peace x

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