Hi...I'm sorry to hear about all the health scares you've recently had associated with medication that you're taking just so the world can seem to be a more linear place where you, too, can have a desk that isn't cluttered with papers. Although I cannot speak to any of the symptoms you've had...I will tell you that I would recommend that you find out who the best heart specialist in your area is, and make an appt. Also, the breathing problen may be from anxiety. But if it's heart or respiratory system related, you don't want to mess around with that. I have ADD as well...the neatness of my desk seems to be as complicated to achieve as curing the common cold. Yet most of my colleagues seem to have no problem with it at all. It's really a disturbing situation to view something that appears to most others as an inconsequential, simple task is such a formidable and difficult one for us. Feelings of inadequacy and failure are always nagging at me...don't know about you. I too take Adderall...although I'm not sure how much it helps. In my humble opinion, I think you need to have your physical symptoms checked out thoroughly...and pronto!! Just so you can rule out anything serious. Then, you can tackle the real challenges in your life. This is strictly my reaction...as a mom to someone about your age. If you were my son or daughter, I'd beg you to see a doctor immediately so that neither of us had to worry needlessly. I'm sure those who love you will feel better after you;ve gotten a clean bill of health. Good luck!!! Let me know if any of this rings true and makes sense to you.

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Thanks Ebadeb. Sorry it's taken a week to respond. I actually forgot about posting this until tonight. Your words ring true. I have already looked into cardiologists. It's about time that I see one anyway, but I've been putting it off. Insurance premiums went up while their coverage went down. Now on top of everything else, I've got bills from my Psychiatrist for several hundred dollars. The fact is that I'm trying to figure out what I'm not going to pay this month just so I can pay her. I can't imagine what a cardiologist would cost with all the crazy tests they are going to want to run on me. I know, I can hear my mother saying that it woudl be more expensive not to go. I'll get around to it.

The stress could be a trigger, but I've lived in a constant state of stress for years. My girlfriend got a job in another state and just moved 9 hours away. Also, I'm up for promotion this year and my initial promotion packet is due on tomorrow. Guess who's not done. The others in my office constantly threaten to come in when I'm gone and clean my office. The thought of that terrifies me because right now I know where everything is. Although, it would be a pleasant surprise when I retire to find things I needed 25 years ago.

I have to get my packet done. I broke down and took a pill yesterday. Breathing problems came back. They weren't nearly as bad this time, but it's still frustrating. I happened to be close to my GP's office so I stopped in, but he doesn't work on Fridays. I'll try again later.

Oh my, it's nearly 2:00am. How did that happen? I'm off to bed. Have a great night.

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