i am gonna post this in another forum on here too. i am going to be 25 and i have been evaluating my brain as u will. when i was a kid, my teachers would complain constantly how slow i am, how i wasnt smart like the smart kids, how they had to repeat directions to me more than once (even basic ones), had to repeat a question more than once so i can understand it better, how i couldnt grasp a lot of things, had to show me basic procedures more than once, and constant arguing with them.

it was a torture all my life and even started college in 04 was even worse. i had a teacher who told me to read somethin out of the text and come back to recite it for her, i only remember 14% of what i read that i had to recite back. i was ridiculed for that! i had another teacher who felt my hearing words doesnt fit in my memory capacity. i dont have an actual hearing problem, the way the teacher described it was "u hear the words but u sit there with a blank look on ur face all the time and i have to repeat or switch my words around so u can understand me." the teacher told me when you read, the image goes into your eyes and gets transmitted into ur memory capacity. she said it works the same way when u r listening to something and she told me my listening was pretty poor when it came to reciting things that i read in books. i told her sorry but i am not book smart and books can only take me but so far.

i told her (the teacher) that i have always been that way in my life. i said i have a tendancy to blank out alot and not hearing anything around me. she asked me have i ever in my life been tested for a learning disability? i said no because my "parents" dont believe in those tests and my mom says u just want to stick me into a special class (this was back in high school). the teacher said im very concern about your learning ability and you seem to have a problem on memorizing things and other issues as well. she was suppose to speak to the counselor to arrange a test, but it never got done at all. so, i was stuck and helpless again. when i was in school, they didnt test u for a learning disability they could refer u to places that they knew which wasnt helpful considering it could have been free on campus if they would've offered it.

i have looked up the symptoms of add/adhd and i checked off a lot of symptoms that i have recognize for my own problem and i fit most of them. i am NOT seeking "pills" just seeking answers, that's all. does anyone have any recommendations? if i talk to my doc, the 1st thing i will get is a pill when that isn't what i want!

any opinions?

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