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12 Dec 2010 @ 10:01 PM
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I need help badly feels so like worlds spinning me around i can't find my center.

I am a full time student who had found my happy moment with my personal achievement and all the while showing my daughter that even with her adhd she can do what needs to be done and achieve. So here is where it went soooo wrong. My husband lost his sister 10 months ago to stomach cancer and I did what any wife would do i sat by his side every day and every night in the hospital...i had always had minor sister in law issues with her but always got along well and loved her very much. She left two children under 13 and a family whom has been lost first prior to the death in denial and now spinning wildly out in the nothingness void she left....we live hours away so we came home and tried oh so desperately to find our center as a family unit. My grandfather has been dealing with leukemia for 5 years and i thank god for the treatment trial that gave me that much because all other options were not possible for his treatment. Last month I got the phone call i really did not want to get. My grandfather was the one person my entire life who said i could do whatever i wanted....not one other person has had the faith in me he has over my lifetime and i am two semesters from graduation in the middle of this and he is removed from his treatment and i am told he won't probably last past jan. I know that seems quite enough to handle on its own but I am in the middle of finals that are very intense i take 18 hours per semester knowing that he was not going to have a long time all i want is for him to see me do something right since he always believed in me. I finally was showing everyone how right he was and now this....i am having these horrible panic attacks for the past week my kids are making me feel crazy and every time my phone rings i want to jump out of my skin....someone help i don't know what to do to refocus and i really have to do it.......help help help.....

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13 Dec 2010 @ 11:42 PM Reply # 1
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Hang in there!

Life does throw us curves every now and then but it is up to us not to panic. My mom always pointed out to me that panicking and allowing ourselves to become overwhelmed by the situation won't do one little bit of good.

It is helpful to 'vent' when necessary. I've realized more and more over the years that there is not one single person out there who has had to deal with horrific losses in their life. Often times, we just think that o one else has had to deal with what we have had to deal with.

It's not true. No one lives a gilded life. If you're really having trouble with major anxiety attacks, get in to see your doctor. Perhaps you need some medication to help you through this rough period. On the other hand, you may do just fine if you go in and speak to a counsellor for a few sessions.

You CAN do it. School is always difficult for everyone especially in those last few culminating months. All the pieces need to fall into place at just the right time! Yes, your role now is a bit more difficult right now since you've been dealth a coupld of blows all within a short period of time.

Guess what? You can do it! You've come this far- don't give up now! Stop, take a deep breath and get focused. You CAN do it.

Your grandfather will proudest of you if you keep yourself focused and moving forward. There are no loving family members who would be pleased to know that they are causing you to fail or fall apart. Make him proud of you by keeping your head screwed on right. You can do it/

We ADHD people often manage better than anyone else when we under some stress. You certainly are dealing with some now. Come back on here and let us know how you're doing.

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14 Dec 2010 @ 8:58 AM Reply # 2
pmillsmom Join Date: Sun 12th Dec 2010
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Thanks so much...

I know it seems bleak now but I just scored a very high score on my (laughing at this one) psychology exam...lol like that is not a subject i am familiar with. But I am 35 and two kiddos make studying hard all by itself not even adding the extra stress. I know what i need to do and you are right he does want me to keep my head on straight since it seemed he said that a ton of times as i grew up. I am just shaken you guys and finals are very tough to handle with his health failing....yesterday my youngest got a bad fever and has some type of illness that i am taking her to see the doctor for today. I did see my counselor who called what i am going through repetitive traumatic stress and while she understands that i usually handle myself astoundingly well she sent my physician a note that this may require some aid via anxiety meds. I hate taking more medication but as my doctor pointed out there are sometimes we must preserve our sanity to move on to the next day. But thanks i will check in regularly so keep pushing me to move forward since it is an old habit to just want to curl up and give in....thanks so much

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