I have the following problem

when i reached 10th grade I found it very hard to read any books. I will read for maybe 30 seconds and my mind will literally fall asleep. I also tend to shake my feet a lot like im anxious and find it very hard to sit in once place and read. since reading is so important in a careeer I have to figure out what th e problem is. I have had add and adhd testing done. Nothing found. I have had a battery of reading tests done and they found nothing too. No dyslexia or vision problems either and im sure i dont have a physical reading problem. But the reason I think they found nothing wrong with my brain is that I have forced myself for 22 years (36 now) to figure out things no matter how difficult my mind is being. here is the symptoms:

i will sit down to read anything more complex than 4th grade level and foot starts tapping 5 seconds into attempt. will read first sentecne. Nothing comprehended. will read second sentence. maybe 1 or 2 words "soak in". I will then read first sentence agains and second sentence again, breaking them apart very slowly and "figure out the meaning" and will get a vague idea of what the sentences mean (the mental picture a sentence is supposed to give will form vaguely is what I mean). First 2 sentences understood by now. About 1 minute has passed. Brain feels very fatigued at this point. Eyes droopy. I feel like getting up and have to force myself to sit there. foot incessantly tapping. Weill read another 2 sentences and same pattern will happen. will read another 2 setnences and finish the paragraph. About 5 minutes have passed. I will be very tired and will get up and sigh and try the second para if I can. If not I will give up reading and go play a video game.

I've tried reading loudly. taping lectures. everything. This problem also occurs when I listen to someone talking because the process is the same for reading and hearing. Finally either signal (reading or listening) must be converted into images or concepts by the brain.

And I think i have tried SSRI medicines but not sure. They gave me add/adhd meidicine and one for anti anxiety later on for a different problem. Neither helped with anything. When people describe add/adhd patients Im not really like them. those patients are super hyperactive and stuff. I'm not like that. I just sit down like a normal person but then will just SHUT DOWN when trying to read. it's like the imaging system and comprehension system that translates what one reads into pictures and understanding a sentence is non-existent in me or actually, it always feels like "a block in the pipeline" literally. I'll read a sentence with no problem but NOTHING HAS BEEN ABSORBED by my brain. For example if process is:

eyes move on page ----- > optic nerve transmits text to brain and brain forms words -------> mind translates words into pictures or gathers meaning --------> concept understood

I am stuck at the "mind translates words...meaning part". It's like the amount of water able to pass at that part in a pipeline has a HUGE bottleneck. Which is why I'll have to piece by piece slowly go back and re-read each sentence and dissect what I've just read to understand it, in small 3 or 4 word chunks. This is also important: BIG WORDS slow the pipeline down considerably. I'll have to concentrate on the big words much much harder than the small ones to understand how they fit into the context of the sentence.

anyone have a CLUE what this is???? they ran every battery of written and computer test including for add/adhd which came up totally negative but didn not do a brainscan/catscan etc. They dont have the means and i cant afford it anyway. they gave me add medicine and it didn't do a thing!!! am I just STUPID????? seriously ]

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