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I would really appreciate some feedback
Hi All
I just stumbled across this site whilst doing some research on ADD/ADHD and am really at the point where after reading about symptoms i seem to be thinking back over my life, thinking a lot of stuff seems to be making a whole load of sense.
Although i have been accused of looking for things to perhaps excuse my not doing them in the past i really feel i may have found a possible answer for what, up until now i really considered to me just being lazy, bone idle or stuck in a rut. I am still pretty sure that some of the stuff i do is down to laziness’. I thought i might just jot down some things that have been on my mind and see if any of you who have ADD could relate to them.
Well I’m rapidly approaching 30 years of age and basically my school years were littered with report cards saying i did not apply myself or is easily distracted. Also whilst growing up i think i must have tried every single sport available, bought all the gear and got really into it for about 2 months then got bored. Not to mention the computer games which i used to and still do spend hours playing computer games although I’m pretty sure that's true for most kids these days. I'm pretty certain when looking back i had some form of OCD because every time i shut a door i had to nod my head three times and click my fingers (lol i can't believe I’m actually writing this).
These days i really do find myself zoning out sometimes, things like being in the shower and using the shampoo then by the time im using body wash i can't remeber if i washed my hair or not. My girlfriend sometimes finds me wandering around when i should be getting ready, she asks "what the hell are you doing!?" and i suddenly remember i was supposed to be putting my trousers on. I leave my phone and wallet in the car a lot and sometimes when im looking for my keys for a few minutes i realise there in my hand.
Job wise I’ve had about 14 different jobs in the past 9 years some lasting 2 years but mainly lasting 4-6 months. I always start a new job great for about a month then i lose all motivation and my work slowly get worse and worse until i just don't bother going in or am always late. This goes along the same lines but if someone wants me to do something i always drag my heels but if for some reason i want to do the same thing at a later date i give it my undivided attention or if it gets to a point where i have to do it. Washing the dishes is like the worst thing in the world for me and when i do get round to doing them i always end up leaving like two pots that i say 'need soaking' :)
I don't know if this has anything to do with ADD but i seem to run scenarios through my head constantly of what may happen in certain situations with full dialog, this mostly happens when I’m trying to sleep or again in the shower lol.
The irony hasn't escaped me that I’ve written such a long post on an ADD forum so I’ll just list a few more things;
Really dislike queuing and tend to storm off if it takes to long and try to come back the next day.
I tend to drive really fast and get quite bored when driving slow, although contrary to what a lot of people on here have said about ADD drivers, i have not really had many accidents and am pretty well focused on other road users.
Have a really short temper especially when driving me and my girlfriend always seem to start shouting at one another about things whilst I’m driving.
Have always had issues getting up in the morning although i tend to sleep very late as have a lot of stuff rushing around my head.
Seem to play computer games a lot to the bemusement of my girlfriend.
Easily distracted when trying to study or read a book and usually read a paragraph start to think about something else and realise i finished the paragraph but don’t remember a damn word of it.
I forget peoples names as soon as they have told me them and i often start thinking of things to ask when people are talking to me then forget what they were talking about or the topic has moved on before i get to ask a question (doesn't happen so much anymore as i try to make an effort)
Wow sorry about the disjointed ramblings. I really think that a lot of the above stuff everybody does but it's just uncanny that so much of it is linked to what I’ve read about ADD. I'd appreciate anyone’s thoughts and feedback, i guess the next step is to speak to my doctor but I'm not really sure if the doctors in the UK take ADD that seriously.
Anyway thanks for your time.
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