So yesterday I got in a bit of an arguement with a guy that I have been seeing for quite some time now. It all started because of my own insecurities and fears, and instead of dropping it after I left for work. I ended up texting him later about it. My meds had worn off by this point and I could not control my impulses, I just kept texting. Mostly with me freaking out that I ruined everything, and asking for reassurance that it was ok. At one point he did text "yes its fine, just zip it" and I still kept going. He kept saying to stop talking about it already, and I couldnt stop, I just kept going. Finally he texted "you started all this, you deal with it however you want". I still couldn't stop texting him trying to explain myself and asking for reassurance, I probably sent another 5-6 texts, of course by this point I have completely annoyed him and created all sorts of complications and drama which is exactly what he doesnt want. So he didn't respond back again. I have had this happen a couple times before with him, just not as severe since all the previous times I stopped talking, dropped the subject, and then everything was fine. This time I could not stop myself and I am so worried that I completely ruined things. I am so upset that I didn't leave it alone, and I dont want to bring it up again, because I know he is done talking about it and I'm afraid that if I try to say anything to apologize or explain myself again then it will just make things worse. But I dont know how to fix this blunder and I really dont want this to be the end of things. I could just kick myself for this. I hate the problems that my impulsivity has created in my life. I havent texted him at all today and I don't plan to since I do think it would be best to back of a little today and let the situation cool. But I do want to fix this. I dont want him gone from my life, cause he is one of the best things in it, I just dont know what to do. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank You.

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