As you all know its almost 9 months since I gave up my son William for adoption , I will honest the last 6 1/2 months has been incredibly difficult I went through a horrible horrible depression and have just come out of it in the last three months . With everything that happened with my son I am a bit worried that when Jeremy & I have a child that as soon as the child is born that DSS will @ my hosital door knocking, asking all kinds of questions , trying to find any reason to take our baby away from us . I know that alot of this fear is centered arround all the trama I went through with DSS in the last yr or so . For the most part Jeremy & I are very stable , we both have constient income comming in every month out of disability checks, we have three bed room / 2 bath trailor with plenty of room , very clean , Jeremy gets food stamps every month , we both have medicaid and medicare . Jeremy has not been in trouble with the law in many many many yrs , he's been clean and sober for the last 6-7 yrs . My only worry is that DSS will question me more then they will him , simply because of what all went on with my son , I am worried they will try to use my ADD status to make me look unfit , I am also worried they might take the old cps reports and try to use them again me and jeremy . The old cps reports state that DSS felt that jeremy has an anger management problem , and stating that his past drug history states he's a risk . Now I have expressed this fear to Jeremy and he has assured me that no one is going to take away our baby , he has stated that the only reason why DSS could take away our child is if someone reports us for abusing or neglecting our child , he also stated that DSS can not take away our child just because he's a convicted felon , that is is a violation of his cival rights . All I know is that I can't not go through loosing another child , my heart just can not take it !!!! I will fully admit that I made alot of mystakes with William but at the same I was a good momma , always put him first before anyone - now that I am older I am secure that I will not make the same mystakes .

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