I am 23 years old and was diagnosed with ADHD 5 months ago. Well, I don't know where to start. Quite literally too. I have so many issues to cover that when I start to think of all the things I need to change/resolve in my life my head begins to hurt. For starters everything brings me down. I'm currently unemployed an am absolutely petrified of starting work. The reason being that I'm unable to maintain civil or cordial relationships with family, friends, peers and colleagues. I have an extremely troubled past and for as long as I can remember I have been essentially depressed, cynical and angry. Over the past 3 years, my anger management skills have fallen to nil. There are times when I'm a completely different, sober person depending on the kind of people I'm surrounded by. Every time I think of making a change, I beat around the bush or just don't start at all. I think to myself practically everyday of a million things I want to start doing but the attempt seems futile because I have tried so many times before and when the time comes for me to be that practical, realistic and strong person I've trained myself to become; my heart overrules my head faster than I can comprehend. I'm addicted to a lot of things. I take solace in food, marijuana, sometimes alcohol, sleeping pills, tv etc. I want to be able to lead a normal life. I want to be able to go to work everyday, FINISH work I start, be good at it, maintain relationships, budget my money and cultivate hobbies. As years have gone by, I feel like my brain has degraded and my growth has stunted. Is a change possible? Is it possible for my brain to stop stressing over the smallest of things? Is it possible for me to love myself? Is it possible for me to control my actions? Of course you can't answer those questions for me..but did anyone manage to do that for themselves? Thanks a lot for listening.

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