I never thought I would ask for help but sometimes you have to I guess. I diagnosed myself with ADD, many times and fit the mold like I have never before. In any case I found out because I lost 2 jobs in a row without knowing why and these were good jobs, hard to get etc.....within 2 months on the job after lengthy interviews tests etc.....

I had no idea why, I thought they were crazy and thought a lot day and night about why it happened, no idea. It happened again in the middle of a recession got a good job and the same thing happened. I started going a bit mental but I stayed positive and started the interview process of my dream job. I thought i did well, the guy on the other side was confused I later found out and did not have a good impression about me. so that is gone too. I did not let him speak!!

Absolutely desperate beyond anything i have seen, I started drinking and sitting on the floor trying to find something that made sense. At the height of my desperation (ugly place) I started saying to myself well maybe just maybe I am not the only one who is going through this. I start googling my life, i.e. fired from multiple jobs, no idea why this and that happened.... i was just trying to do something i thought was stupid but I had to do something so I don't loose it completely.

After a few hours of intense reading I diagnose myself with ADD, with all the flying colors, as odd as it might sound this is what happened, I am stunned like i will never be, my jaw is way down somewhere.

Now what, I obviously looked for a Dr, attended every seminar/workshop and I am waiting for a Psychiatrists appointment, Now we are in a serious recession that will not end soon, I have no job and I realized many times over during my awakening moments that It was me I started replaying in my head so many things and decided in the end to send a thank you note to my ex bosses to thank them for firing me. Madness in action.

Now I got fired because of my ADD no doubt, I will eventually find a specialist, but I have no job and can't do one before I get well ( i will be sent home i know). my wife is pressuring me big time she does not really get it and is not interested in talking to me about it besides rare occasions.

I am stuck, even if I want to do something, decent jobs are very rare I always check, I am running out of money, I haven't started proper treatment yet and I know that can take time to find the right mix of meds.

So the world is crumbling around me, slowly but surely and I am in a straight jacket, helpless. Any direction you look things are unusually tough, and c.lose to impossible. Other lucky people with no brain issues are cruising past me in all walks of life and I am helpless.

Thanks for the advices if any, but please all this be strong, patient, etc.......stuff does not work in our real world.

Me: 38 Educated, spent years in corporate America but this thing got worse with time and the past year has been too screwed up.

Thanks............

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