I'm kinda frustrated right now, it seems as as tho these days Jeremy only has his mind open for his interests such as his sports shows, but yet expects me to drop what ever I am doing at the moment and pay attention to his what interests him. Now Jeremy play softball with the local softball city league and I don't mind that , he only does this about twice a week , so it's good for us because we both get a chance to have our space. How ever the thing that gets on my nerves is that when ever Jeremy comes home from softball practice or anything else for that matter , he spends the next hour or so afterwards watching ESPN sports , one of his many sports channels. There are many nights that the things I want to do doesn't done because Jeremy is too interested in what he's doing . I tend to get really aggrivated when I have waited patiently on Jeremy , so at the end of the evening he's been so wrapped up in his own desires that my desires get pushed back , or they get delayed or else they just don't happen , simply because Jeremy's too tired or else he' forgotten about his promise that he made to give me his undivided attention and his undivided time . I know that Jeremy can't spend all day up my butt , and I don't want him up my butt all day long , but at the same time - I wish he would show the same passion that she shows with his sports to certain things in our relationship , I wish Jeremy would put forth the same passion he has for his softball to the things that interests me , he just acts as tho everything should revolve around him and all of his interests and passions. Jeremy gets upset when ever I don't show interest his what he's interested in , so when ever I go back to what I am doing , he gets upset that i am not paying him any attention but at the same time , I'm aggrivated because he's not showing any respect to what I am doing and what I am interested in or passionate about , then he wonders why I don't open up to him about my passions and my interests.

On another note - Jeremy & I along with his mom went looking on Friday to see about putting down on our first trailer . The mortgage guy Derike was really nice , he sat down with us and got our income info what we pull in every month . The fact that Jeremy nor I have any student loans , car payments ect ect does make us look good, the fact that my credit score is good helps a lot - as far as Jeremy's credit score well he doesn't quite enough credit to have a credit history , neither one of us do really ,but any how - Jeremy mom's made it very clear that our mortgage payments need to be no more than $400.00 a month , she said that she doesn't want us to move , run into problems and have a place to live but end up not being able to put gas in the car, buy food etc etc . The fact that we already have a lot available in the same trailer park that we are currently living in helps too - not to mention the fact that we are paying on his brother's mortgage , which is the same company that the Moble home company that we went to on Friday , so there for us paying Jeremy's brother's mortgage helps us out even more . After getting all the info , we went to look @ the first trailer , the first trailer we looked at was a 3 bed./ 2 bath trailer , the moment we walked in , Jeremy and I immediately loved the lay out of the trailer , we love the colors , we love everything . We were going for a 2 bed/ 2 bath trailer but the one we looked at on Friday is in our price range but is also cheaper than a 2 bed/ 2 bath trailer . Derike our mortgage guy said that he would get a quote and will let us know some time this week . Jeremy & I and his mom have another appt on Wed at 4pm to fill out an application , Jeremy & I are going to be run together and we are hoping that we will be approved - Derike said that if our application comes back conditional that just means that the bank wants us to have about 2-4 more hundred bucks , but he is hoping that we will be approved simply because of my good credit . All Jeremy & I can do is to pray that god moves on it ,we can start the next chapter of our life - of settling down in our own place and paying on it for the next 7 yrs , to where we will eventually own it out right .

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