Oh lordy me , I'm so frustrated with Jeremy , it never fails he always seems to get easly distracted , these days his biggest distraction is his cell phone . He has the bad habit of always asking me for help with something , then his cell phone rings & he ends up talking on his cell phone for hours on end , I then get just dow right aggrovated and I go back to what I was doing . I figure well he odviously doesn't really need my help , he just wants me to mother him & I'm not going to do that so he can survive on his own . The other thing that frustrates me is the fact that Jeremy never on time to anything . Last night we were suposed to be home by 9m so we could watch the movie ( Marley & Me) , then Jeremy's twin brother Jason called and asked Jeremy if he wanted to come up to his house to watch the first half of the Sun's Game , I told Jeremy that if he went up to Jason's that we wouldn't have time to watch the movie , Jeremy promised he would be home in time ( which i knew in the back of my mind he wasn't going to be home on time) . Jeremy didn't get in until 12am , he begged me to put the movie in , so I did - Jeremy stayed awake through pretty much most of the movie , up until towards the end of the movie & he ended up falling sleep , so I was left to watch the rest of the movie by myself . To say the least this morning when I got up I made it very clear that I was not watching any more movies with Jeremy until he could be on time & make the time. I also made it very clear to Jeremy that I am not his mother & I'm not going to mother him , every time he needs help , I told he he was 5 months away from being thirty yrs old , he needed to learn how to organize himsef that I was fed up with doing it , I told him that I had enough of stuff on my plate & that he needs to learn how keep up with his own walet, phone & keys . Fact of the matter is , I'm not just frustrated with Jeremy & our relationship in general , I'm incredibly frustrated with my DSS case worker she was suposed to send me some up todate pictures of William via Email but has yet to send them . She told me last Friday that she would send them , it' been a week now and I still do not have any pictures . I don't think my case worker quite gets it , I need those pictures , having up todate pictures of William helps me get through not being able to any kind of contact with him , plus the pictures in general just help ease my motherly heart ache and worry . I mean it's bad enough that I am not able to see my own son , let alone have no contact with him , it's bad enough that I'm never going to be able to be in a room alone with him , it's bad enough that the state as well as DSS is trying to strip my parental rights away from me - but for god sakes at least they could do is to send me some up todate pictures , so that away I could at least know that William is growing & thriving and that he's happy .

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