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| Thread : ADHD College Student on a Crashing Train of Anxiety | |
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| entrancing |
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ADHD College Student on a Crashing Train of Anxiety
i feel like im a never ending FML quote machine! background on my educational life: starting school as a child they noticed a problem with me, my mother said it was auditory processing (doesnt even sound real) and they put me in the "special classes" with the kids who were slower or had speech problems, i felt so out of place but was feeling influenced to believe i was slow. I NEVER got good grades in school, the special teachers just taught me to read and repeat (worst thing ever for adhd in my opinion) like a robot, obviously that doesnt work, luckily I got out of the special classes in 8th grade when i made a big deal about it. In high school the teachers said i was just lazy or didnt care, my guidance teacher told me i would NEVER go to a four year college and it was unrealistic, so i should just aim lower.... great education right? so i graduated high school with a HORRIBLE gpa and the idea i was just a stupid person. I decided to go to massage school and I felt like i was wasting my life, fortunately I was in a bad car accident that left me unable to do massage therapy, and for 2 years I pretty much lived in myself, going to work and then going home and sitting alone. A teacher at the massage school brought up quantum physics ]and it peeked my interest so I started looking things up online and learned. I started to grasp the information and I suddenly felt for the first time I wasnt stupid at all. My mother who was seeing a therapist suggested I see him too, and luckily for me he is a specialist in ADD and ADHD and quickly set the record straight on my learning disability! FINALLY! In the last year of finding out I had ADHD i started adderal,l after talking to some one else with ADHD, and holy crap for the first time ever im getting good grades, i can focus, and im motivated to get things done! Its like a miracle, I just started community college and after the first semester I have a 3.5 gpa!! Now im in my second semester and as we speak I am freaking out man!!! ok so hears the deal, i got all ambitious getting all A's and B's. I decided to major in biological psychology and i want to become a professor of psychology at a university so i can do research and teach; i would love to be able to help out my fellow ad/hd'ers doing research to strengthen the knowledge of this disability because nothing infuriates me more then some one who thinks it isn't real and were all just lazy, or school systems who cant properly assess a students learning problems and help them. Choosing this major i wanted to take classes in community that would transfer to a 4 yr and i wanted to take the classes geared towards my major so this semester im taking statistics, economics, general chemistry and computer literacy. Thankfully I got an AMAZING math professor who gets me to actually understand math, and i know economics isnt related to biological psychology but i wanted to try all the social sciences, and i also felt with the current status of our society it would be beneficial. Computer literacy is not what i thought it would be, its a lot of techy information but with the future going to computers i think its mandatory. Chemistry..... HOLY CRAP... im soooooo lost! its a 3 hour lecture in a huge room with tons of students, and this little old guy zooms through these power point slides and racing through information like hes about to miss his ride or something. The textbook reads like a technical manual and its hard to read and the power points arent even notes, just random factoring problems and pictures. Everyone in the class complains about the difficulty to take notes, listen and grasping the information, so you can imagine how much anxiety im getting from this. I went up to him after class to talk to him about my ADHD and I asked if I could some how get a copy of the power points before lecture so I didnt waste time writing so i could listen, but he said no. The first exam i studied sooo hard, for 4 days i studied and studied but it was to much information that I have never experienced before and come time for the exam my memory crashed and i totally bombed it. Now ive given up note taking and just try to listen, but i noticed he assumes we know information he should be teaching, he claims the motto "my job is just to throw the information at you and you have to catch it".. i have a second exam on tuesday and im so lost.. plus i was sick last weekend and i didnt take my adderall so i felt really tired and lazy, and then i kept forgetting to take my adderall and i ended missing classes. The problem with that is that my college decided to implement a new rule that a student cant miss more then 3 classes per class in a semester or the professor will drop them. Last semester my teachers were sympathetic and because i was doing well they waved the absences. This semester ive missed assignments and havent been doing AMAZING with grades.. not to mention i missed my computer lit exam.. im freaking out that my professors will drop me, or i'll get bad grades. i have an online exam this weekend and the other three next week. Im not ready, i dont know if I can do it... Ive never succeeded in school before and im not confident in myself yet. am i really smart? or am i just not cut out for this. Im only in school because a rehabilitation service is paying for it because of my accident, without it i could never afford this opportunity, and i signed a contract saying i wouldnt get less then a 2.5 in each class or id be dropped. so much pressure so much stress, i got layed off because of the recession and i cant pay my bills, i live with my mom but shes in her mid 60's and her health and mental state is starting to decline. all this and school, im freaking out and shutting down, laying in my bed curled up scared to move. help? |
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| Anni |
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ADHD in College
First of all, congratulations on embracing your diagnosis and for turning your life around. It sounds like you've set some wonderful goals for yourself and that you have the intelligence and dedication to make it happen. Don't be too hard on yourself - juggling four college courses is tough on anyone, much less an ADD adult who's just recently been diagnosed. I know it's difficult, but try to just take it one day at a time and don't get overwhelmed by the big picture. Study for your exam this weekend - concentrate on that - and worry about the next thing next. And don't forget to take your meds! Set an alarm. Then another alarm. Write Post-It notes - whatever it takes. I would also recommend checking out ADDitude's ADHD College Guide, which has links to our best articles about note-taking strategies, talking to unsympathetic professors, sticking to a schedule, etc. I hope this helps! Best of luck with exams! |
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