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Will Empathy from Friend be Helpful?
Hi,
If you haven't read I'm an 18 yr old guy with ADHD, depression and psychotic tendencies.
Now, my biggest problem is no empathy from anyone (even my parents), I just received a reply to my email from my aunt, she says "i think your ADD is just laziness, with 'superior intelligence' you should be able to study what street children manage" Thing is, people in my family have been through a lot, so they feel we're in a "better" state and should not complain but tolerate.
Now I fell pretty depressed, I think I'm going to slit my wrist again tonight.
So, i have one friend, Jennie, shes really nice and she's my friend because we made a deal, i helped her pass a computer science degree after she failed once, she did, and in return she helped me with my 12th grade (yes 12th grade) but i'm going to fail my exams, they were really bad. She knows i visited a psychiatrist and i told her i have ADHD but it doesn't seem very serious to her, i haven't told her i have depression and i haven't told why(my family issues).
Unfortunately, she lives extremely far away so we can't meet very often.
Now i have one last set of exams coming in November, if i fail those i think i might go suicidal.
I was thinking of meeting her soon and telling her everything, all i'm looking is for her to understand i have "something" I might start by showing her my blood stained wrist? No one except the docs know about my wrist.(she might not like it though, she hates blood!!)
So what do you guys think, should i go and do it?
Thanks so much.
Gideon
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