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Swiss Cheese Childhood!
LOL That is my own private joke. I am 28 now but even in high school when most of my friends could still remember their childhood quite clearly, I had little to nno recollection. I would joke that I had a swiss cheese childhood because there were more holes and gaps than substance :) Now that I am 28 I remember little to nothing at all, not even events that should stand out. At times I will get flashes, sometimes in a dream that is eerily vivid and I have to question whether it actually happened or if it is something my overactive mind made up. I don't stress about it too much anymore but it really bothered me as a teen. At the time I went through hypnotherapy to try to get some memories back, I kept journals of what I could remember, etc. Now if I read through the journals, it's like they are written by someone else entirely, even reading them does not prompt a memory, it's like reading a story by another person, no personal connection.
Another troubling thing is I will run into peeple I haven't seen in a long time and they will mention some of my outrageous behavior(PreDiagnosis) when I was younger, and I get angry thinking I didn't do that! In reality I probably did and simply cannot remember it now.
As for now, I take LOTS of pictures and force myself to get them into a digital scrapbook with notes within a month so I wont forget what to write. This has helped quite a bitin preserving my kids childhoods for them and for myself :)
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