Right now I am so beyond stressed , between all this messed up crap going on with William & fighting like hell to keep my motherly rights , then the fact that my mom has been the hospital since saturday evening , my stress level has gone from 6 to a 9 or 10 . My 61 yr old mother who is a retired nurse Corp Captin ( whom was forced to medically retire in 1977 due to a back injury she suffered lifting a patent) any way my mom has had type two diabeties since 1995 & has only had one major issue with her diabeties since the entrie time she's been a diabetic , any way - about a week ago my mom had developed a slight infection with her 3rd toe on her left foot, now given the fact that she's had infections like this before , she went ahead and made an appoint with her family Dr to get anitbiotics which always helped in the past, well apparently late Friday night early saturday morning my mom got to get up to go the bath room , she took all for 4 steps and fell , she then tried to get up again, took another two steps and fell, so she turned on the light to see what was causing her to fall , that's when she looked at her foot and noticed the very very red infected toe & knew that something was seriously wrong because she couldn't keep her balance, plus pain had started to spread from her toe , all the way through her foot , all the way up through her leg into her crotch . Then about 2pm she called Jeremy & I asked if I would come down to the apartment, because she was going to have to call 911 to get an ambluence to the hospital . So Jeremy dropped me off , I helped get my mom some what dressed , I then called 911 , I road with her to the hospital , by this time it was like 5 :30 in the evening , we get to the hospital ER , they take her back , from there I waited with my mom in the ER from 6pm all the way to 12:30 am , while in those 7 hrs they took blood, urine, untrasound on her left leg , xray on her left foot , to make sure the infection had not spread to the bone . Then finally at about 1am the ER DR finally saw her, took one look at the foot & admited her then . Then at about 1:30 they finally take her up stairs to the 3rd floor to her room , I then called Jeremy at about 2am , I kissed my mom good bye & headed for home . Jeremy & I didn't get home until like 3:30 am . Then Sunday morning my mom called me to tell me that the Dr had been in @ 8am to see her & felt that it would be best to do surgery on the toe , but first infectious disease control had to take cultures from the toe to find out what caused the infection , after that my mom was taken to the OR & ended up having to have half of her 3rd toe removed from her left foot . Now none of that seemed to bother my mom , she's just glad she didn't loose her whole foot , she could care less about one toe , but the foot is whole different story . I'll be honest in a way I think that god had a reason for her to be in the hospital , because now we have access to possible home health nurse , or discussion of some sort of services or options as far as my mom & getting her some sort of part time assistance , so Jeremy & I dont feel so over whelmed . I know the last week or so I have felt incredibly mentally & physically drained from dealing with the whole situation with William , fighting so hard to be heard by DSS , not being treated fairly , not knowing what's going on with my son doesn't help - on top of worrying about my mom & dealing with her being hospital , there for having to do more on top of what I ready juggle , Its just alot to keep up with, alot to take in all at one time , I find myself working ten time harder to process all the info that I am recieving , Im having to work harder to be patient , which usually I'm a pretty patient person to begin with but when you got two major high stress situations goin on at the same time, it seems as tho all your patients gets worn out quicker than ususal . Plus I guess you can it doesn't help the fact that in the last two weeks I've been incredibly inpatient with Jeremy , simply due to the fact that he is ADHD , so there for he's never on time to anything , he's unorganized ( which for me being ADD & being incredibly organized his disoragnization drives me nuts) on top the fact that it take the man for ever to get dressed, eat, get his phone , walet & keys together , which alot of his lateness is partly due to his OCD , so there for I run out of patients after about 2 hrs . I guess you can say I just feel like I never get a break . Even tho I feel like I never get a break , I love Jeremy with all my heart - Jeremy is good to me , he's been there for in so many ways , he tries so hard to understand me & in so many ways he does understand me . Truth of the matter is my mom & I are the only two people who understand Jeremy & love every bit of him . I know from being with him for 8 yrs I am the only woman who understands him in every way . Just goes to show you that just because I am ADD &Jeremy is ADHD / OCD we don't love each other any differntly , in fact we love each other more . I guess you can we are each other's balance in this non ADD/ADHD world .

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