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Sick of Proving Myself to Disability Determination Services
Well this past Tuesday I had my Dr's appointment with the psychologist from disability determination services, of course all she was, was the psychologist to do the standard test like asking me, What was the date? Whe yr that we are in? And asking me to subtract in 7's from 92 & so on . . . She then asked to draw a clock with all the numbers in the correct place, then she asked to place the hands on the time that I was given. Of course she asked me if I lived on my own, and have I ever lived on my own, am I in a relationship with the opposite sex etc. I of course told her no, because on paper I am living with my mom (but in all actuality I'm not) but my mom & I know that if disability found out that Jeremy & I are living together, it would make my case ten times more complicated, plus in my honest opinion my & Jeremy's relationship is non of their business, they already have what they want, it wouldn't matter who I was in a relationship with. I can't get married period due to the way my disability is. However my mom does think that whole statement that I don't have enough medical evidence in my file proving that I am ADD is a bunch of b/s . Oh I just get so exhausted with having to prove myself over & over again to disability determination services. Fact is, if I didn't get the amount of money I get every single month, Jeremy & I wouldn't have made it as far as we have. I know we wouldn't have been able to save up as much as we have right now if it wasn't for my disability check. Now don't get me wrong we are still trying to save every single month to where hopefully by Sept we will be in our own 2 bed/ 2 bath trailer where we are renting to own but we both know that it's not going to happen over night but we are still going for our dream. I am incredibly thankful for the thousand dollar check I get every month, I know that there are not a lot of 28 yr olds out there these days who get the income I get. But in the same token, having disability isn't all what it's cracked up to be. For one, you only get paid once a month. I'm not able to marry the man that I love because then disability would consider me to be independent, there for I don't need the government's money because I am married and my spouse is my soul provider. Plus the fact that disability determination services is always looking over my shoulders, so you kinda feel like your on probation. Now I will fully admit this, there's no way I could live on my own, not in the day in time, maybe I could if I was a Lawyer, Dr or Nurse. How ever I don't want to be on disability for the rest of my life, no I may not have the skills to work a 9 -5 job part time such as McDonalds, etc. but I do have other ambitions. I would love more than anything to go back to school, get my GED, then take the computer classes that I have been dieing to take, so I can pursue my degree in Graphic Web Design (which is my dream ) but as of right now this disability is just temporary, after all I did work extremely hard to get my disability to begin with, all the Phsy Evals, all the Neurological evaluations I did just to get to where I am today..
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