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Disorganized, Depressed, and Gifted
This is my first post. I'm frequently depressed, and last spring went to a therapist about this, but went under the pretense of being "disorganized," since I frequently am, and I figured most of my stress comes from losing things, and spending 15 minutes looking for an assignment when I'd rather be spending the time actually doing my work.
Anyways...I stopped going, but now I'm discovering new things by reading about different mental health issues. There's no question I've had and continue to have a problem with organization. I did poorly in college, I think because I didn't know how to manage my time, and I also wasn't much of a reader (possibly because I had trouble staying focussed on reading). During movies if someone missed a part and asked what happened, I almost always didn't know either, I seemed to space out during it, and my mind would be on other things.
As a result of this, I feel like I've missed out on a lot of my own life, and I've struggled in social situations because I can't talk about books, or movies, or tv shows, because I've had a hard time paying attention to them.
Despite all this, I am a fairly creative person, and can be quite organized when it comes to writing for some reason. I'm often clever, and I don't think it's obvious to most people that "I have a problem," but to myself, I know I do, especially when I feel depressed.
Anyways, I'm writing because I'm trying to sort all of this out. I don't know if a lable would help me, but I'm still in the active process of trying to figure out how to organize my room, my time, papers at my job, my eating schedule, etc. and how to make better use of my time than sitting around with ugly thoughts in my head about who I am and why I am this way.
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