well Jeremy & I have had a pretty good weekend, we've been @ home just chillin together , enjoying each other , reconnecting. Mean while I've been trying to work on the family back ground info that I've been asked to gather by my new social worker . I'll be honest going back into your family back ground can be fun & interesting @ the same time .

Now from the information I've been able to gather on my dad's side - My Grandfather ( my dads father ) William Melvin Kernick was born 10/ 20/ 1914 died 01/ 11/ 1995 My grand father was the adopted son of James & Ann Laura McGowen - I know that the names Kernick & McGowen is German / Irish decent - Now my grandmother ( my dad's mom) Alta Maude Heliman born 04/ 6/ 1935 died 5 / 16/ 1987 now I don't know anything about my dad's mother's parents .

Now on my mom's sides - My grand mother ( my mom's mom) Bonnie Hicks Cassida born 3 / 17/ 1916 - I know that my grand mother was married to my grand father Jess Cassida (my mom's dad) from what I know my mom's dad died when my mother was 6 yrs old , so if you do the math my mom was born in Feb 1947 - from what I have gather my grandfather Jess Cassida died in 1954 ? not really sure , I don't really know much about my grand father Jess accept for the fact that I know he worked on the rail road( as to what he did I don't know) I also know that the name Cassida is of Spanish decent - Now as to the rest of information my family back ground on my mom's side, I'm going to have to make a phone call to my aunt Jane ( my mom's sister to get the rest of the info .

The other side of the family back ground that I have to gather is my ex = which is Willam's biological father's side- that one is going to take a bit longer because of the fact that there are bits and pieces of the family back ground that I know . My ex Rob ( Willilam's biological father) his mother Karen & I have only met once but we've kept in close contact ever since I found out I was pregnant with William , & even after William's biological father & I broke up we kept in close contact - I know that Rob has 2 brother's John Paul & Frank but I've never met either of the brother's , I know that Rob also has two sisters Christy & Tusha Ann , Christ Rob's oldest sister I've only met once- I have also only met Rob's Grand mother Bessie once, from what I know she lives in Taylors S. C . DSS is really wanting to be able to place William with family but I'll be honest as of right now it doesn't look like placing Wililam with family is the best option simply because , Everyone on my mom's side of the family is old & can't physically do it, everyone on my dad's side is old & isn't able to physically do it , the only person I know that could possible take William would be my dad but I doubt it my dad would do it - truth is my dad & I aren't very close & we haven't been very close at while when I was growing up - Every body else in my family along with relatives live in different states so there for they don't live in NC . Rob my ex, his family none of them live in the state of NC so there really not an option , not to menton the fact that I haven't spoken to any of his family members in yrs, the only one whom I've talked to on a constient bases has been his mother & she is suffering from Liver disease so there for she's definately not able to take William on . Truth is I really don't want William to moved out of state- the last thing I want is to go through that all over again - I'm definately not going through what I went through with Leslie all over again that's for sure . The other thing is this , I don't want William to be moved because it would mess up his schooling , the last thing he needs is to loose his grounding , the fact that he's been accepted to the school for Academically Gifted childran - I want him to be able to dive into his schooling , I know that my boy is going to collage, who knows he might even get a schollership , I don't know what his major is going to be - but as of right now god has just started to revels all the gifts that my William posesses . Now my case worker did menton about open adoption but I didn't respond, I'm still not sure how I feel about open adoption . I would probably reconsider it a little more if Wiliam were tell me himself that he wants to do an open adoption but me still be there and be involved in his life , until then I'm just going to keep going along with the planns that god has had the last 6 months & I'm going to keep on with the planns that god revels to me each & every day . I know that i'm due back in court this comming Thuresday , I'll get a chance to meet William's foster mother ( the woman he is currently with right now ) . I have a good feeling about this time, Now that Leslie & the Wikes are no longer involved in the case , things should go easier this time , I'm hoping .

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