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LOL I work at Emerson too. Do you know of any support groups?
"Accounting" job doesn't say much, therefore we need to be more specific. I love doing analysis, leaning operations, integration of business systems... unfortunately I am in charge of something totally different - something overwhelming and extremely demoralizing - Intercompany collections. This is the hell on Earth for ADHD folks - I look at it as a boot-camp of sorts. There are 4 types of customers, and my job is to tend to everything they please. But some of the problems are, is that many of these folks don't need you, won't respond; There are rules, but no one enforces them, I have no authority to do so, there is no help from the corporate or your management whose interests are not aligned with mine. The situation gets worse when you consider conflict of interest situations between representatives of different tiers of customers. I am always the person to blame. Everyone is expecting from me 10 times more than I can deliver, and no matter how hard I am working for them - gratification is nonexistent. Management sets the bar higher all the time, the workload gets bigger - I get into trouble. Any improvements I tried to implement to get issues fixed, were looked at it they were pipedreams of a crazy guy, or need to go through a process that would involve dozens of pointless meetings, conference calls, and a behemoth of a old-school management bureaucracy. Every person naturally has some resistance to a change, but in accounting - EVERYONE in the organization I know is very resistant of any changes whatsoever. I cannot even work out an accommodation for my work hours to be slightly altered...
At this job, If I lived at my desk and popped Adderall XR non-stop - In order to deliver any positive performance improvement using the nonsense practices I can't alter - It would take a superhuman effort and would only be seen after a quarter or two. The same goes for procrastination - It would take 2 month of doing nothing for management to start noticing a problem... So the delay of cause/effect relationship is huge
What I figured - it you have ADHD, and your job is such that you can't find a challenge or excitement in what you do, gratification is far removed from the input effort, and all you see all day are demands and complaints for something out of your control, you get constantly grilled for others' mistakes and inaction - this is the most demoralizing job ever, especially for ADHD, whose symptoms get much worse. So I need to start working on finding another position, but since I am stubborn as a mofo, I keep trying harder to master this chaos, because I know that If I will be able to manage challenges of this job - that then after that - I could do absolutely any job.
The most frustrating part is that I see how everything can be fixed, improved and automated, the problem is - my boss grew very hostile and skeptical to anything that comes from me as an idea. The first thing he probably thinks, I'm guessing, if I start talking about some idea, is that I should instead focus on what my job description is, and not waste time looking for process improvements, because we have a person for that on our staff too, the problem is thought, that she has not done a thing to make my job easier for many years.
I am going to kick it up a notch, but ultimately - I understand that this is a terrible fit and there are plenty more jobs posted internally where I could transfer, that might be similar in function, but different in levels of gratitude, overall morale, sense of accomplishment. (and would not involve so many problems, that my Outlook would have a 460 task backlog....). I just want to work on providing analysis of operations.
Ironically, the most fulfilling job I ever had (out of more than thirty) - was being a driver/team-lead on a residential mover's crew. There is no way it would pay all the bills now that I have a family to feed - it paid twice less than I get now... But I still can't forget all the gratitude, the feeling of a mission, being everyday on a different scenery meeting different people, their sad and anxious faces in the morning that gradually were getting replaced with an awe, glow and appreciation (and plenty of tips too!!) in the evening at the end of every move. Move planning also required creative solutions on the logistics, crowd control and shared elevator issues. If the owner call me tomorrow and offers more than I am making now - I would not hesitate to say "yes" for one second. All my postgraduate training in investments and economics has never created anything so fulfilling as a simple joy of making someone happier anyways.
I would advise anyone here consider how every job role is so much different in regards to the daily sense of accomplishment and external appreciation. It pretty much boils down to these two factors, which I would never again fail to consider when changing companies/careers/positions.
Every person needs to have the following criteria in play in order to enjoy their job:
Plans -> Effort -> Result -> Recognition
The problem with ADHD employees is this - in order for this chain to work, the effort must justify the result in order to get recognized. And ADHD brain will not spare much effort, if the plans are unclear, there is no inherent challenge to ADHD ego, or if there is a disagreement how such effort would add value towards achieving what was planned. In these cases your productivity shuts down, and you lose any motivation for making an effort. And in my case - I find it hard to focus on something you see as a waste of time, especially if there is no excitement involved.
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I do not believe you are nuts. My husband thinks he had ADD/ADHD but he found his passion and pursued it as a career. You find that numbers and computer software is your passion. I know what my passion is I just need to do some serious academic review but right now is not the time. I believe Adderall made things worse which caused severe side effects in my behavior and created a destructive path but that has been MY experience. As I taper off I am "waking" up so to speak.
What alot of people do not understand is that people with ADD can be very focused IF they find something they love to do. So kudos to you and good luck.
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