There are times when I wish that Jeremy was normal - normal in the fact that I wish he didn't have OCD - The ADHD I can handle , simply because over the last 7 yrs I've learned how to deal with my ADD. I bend over backwards trying to help Jeremy stay organized, using a lot of the same techniques I have learned over the yrs to help better deal with my ADD in every day life. Truth of the matter is Jeremy's OCD is often hard to deal with more, than his ADHD. Jeremy's consistent need for everything to be done his way , to be done perfectly really reminds me a lot of my father, with all his constant criticism throughout my childhood, up until I was 7 months from my 18th birthday when ever I moved out of my dad's house and into my moms - because I could no longer take not being good enough for my dad. Jeremy's OCD causes him to analyze everything and find every tiny flaw with what is going on - Jeremy is right in the fact that I don't know exactly what he went through in his childhood with his dysfunctional family and household. No I don't know what he went through and I'm really sorry that he had to go through things and see things that no kid should have to see - but Jeremy doesn't know what my child hood was like neither- Dealing with a father who really wanted a son instead of a daughter so there for my dad and I never really had that father daughter relationship where I felt I could tell my dad anything with out him judging me- It was incredibly hard dealing with a disabled mother who suffered from chronic pain - and isn't able to do your typical mother daughter type of things. No I didn't have a dysfunctional child hood like Jeremy did- yes I had stability but the stability part on my dads side was a little too strict to the point that I became this shy girl who didn't feel that anything she does is good enough. I just wish Jeremy would try to under stand things from my point of view first before he looks at things from his point of view only. I know that Jeremy probably doesn't even realize how much his OCD has affected simply because he's so consumed with the obsessive thoughts that his OCD causes, along with all the drama and stress with his family - it's hard for him to see how everything is affecting me. Now some people might think well if your having such a problem with this, and your not able to handle the OCD, then just get out of the relationship - No no that's not the answer god is trying to give me - it just means that I need to work just a little bit harder no matter what that means, weather it means having Jeremy reading my journal entries, along with trying to find some sort of relationship counseling. I am thankful that Jeremy is up for going to counseling and has agreed that his OCD is a major problem. How ever agreeing that it's a major problem and actually doing something about is a totally different thing in it's self.

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