Well yesterday I went to the first DSS team meeting . It went rather well , Jon & Jennifer Wike were there which are ( William's kenship placement) - the case history was reviewed & gone over - of course Jeremy's name was brought up , I spoke up immediately made it very clear that Jeremy is no longer involved in this out of respect of me as a mother, so that I can have a chance of having a relationship with William no matter how that comes about - Jeremy is backing off out of respect of William because he wants what's best for William , because he wants Willilam happy . Mr. Moss my social worker was there along with his superviser, Leslie's social worker- Daniel Shaw ( William's Guardian @ litem ) along with my new social worker and her superviser . Jennifer did inform everyone that a week before William was to come live with Jon & her, that Leslie called her flipping out , stating that William was out of control , that she was up @ the hospital getting ready to committ William - Jennifer then called the social worker asked him if she needed to go get William - Jennifer then drove from Bryson City all the way up here to Asheville to pick William up @ the hospital - after everything was over and done with Jennifer had to go to walmart @ 11pm at night to get William the basics under wear, shirts, tooth brush, shorts, sandles ect because William only had the clothes that he had on his body along with book bag . jennifer stated when William first came to live with her & Jon that he was very shy, wasn't very open to her or Jon - was really scared that he would be rejected & abandoned by them in a few months . That is all because of the all of the abuse & neglect that William suffered when he was with Leslie . William is doing really good now , he's doing therphy once a week - he's been in vacational bible school this summer - Now i'm still not allowed to have contact with him until his therphiest ok's it - I'll be honest it's really hard not being able to have contact with William but I love William & respect him so as of right now I'm not pushing too hard to get a visitation - the last thing I want is to push William to do a visiation when he's emotionally & mentally not ready . After all mental & emotional abuse that William suffered by Leslie - putting it into William's head that I have rejected & abandoned , thats why I sent William to Leslie in the first place - poor baby , so it's going to take a little time for William to get over all of that stuff. I did state that I am willing to take the assesments , parenting classes ect so to prove myself . I told all of the DSS staff that I understand that they don't feel that William should be placed back in my home because I am with jeremy & because of Jeremy's long lengthy record that DSS doesn't feel that he's fit to be arround William - I made it very clear that there is no point in Jeremy taking all the asessments and trying to prove himself if he's never going to be permitted to be arround Wililam . Jeremy is very supportive of me and having a relationship with my son no matter how that comes about - once I do the asessments and are able to get supervised visiation , Jeremy is willing to drop me off where ever when ever i am granted supervised visiation .

After the meeting was over with Jon & jennifer I walked with them out side, we talked for about 20 minutes . I gave Jennifer my email address and told her to email me some pictures of William , she said she would . Daniel Shaw ( William guardian @ Litem did send me a picture of William that he took with his camera phone a c ouple of days ago . Seeing that picture brought tears to my eyes but it also brought me peace & re assurence I know that my baby is ok - Jon & Jennifer are taking really good care of him & William is happy , that is the most imporatnt thing out of all of this. That is why I am 100% sure about signing custdy of William over to Jon & Jennifer - Now if I do adoption my parental rights will be terminated , that's why I am now fighting to where Jon & Jennifer get custdy of Willilam and not Leslie - even if Leslie passes all of the asessments - I'm going to fight to make sure she never has any contact with William . I don't think that it would good for William's mental and emotional well being. after everything Leslie has put that poor boy through, I am proud that William is doing good considering everything that has happended in the last 4 months - he's going to be in 2nd grade , he's sky rocketing in his math, a little behind in his reading - Jon is suspecting that William might be dislexic because he keeps turning words like " no and On arround " so there is going to be some nuroplogical testing for ADD/ ADHD and dislexia . All of that can be over come , William is a bright little boy I know that he'll over come that no matter what.

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