Lord, heavenly father I come to you tonight because I need your help and I know without you all of this crap that I am going through right now, I know that without you , nothing positive will come from this. God I just ask you to lay your hands on my William , keep him safe watch over him lord because you know that i am not able to watch over him @ this time . God I know that I messed up by not getting my own lawyer before I did the Temp Guardianship with leslie , I'm also fully aware that I messed up by allowing William to stay with leslie as long as he did but god you know that the rest of this is not my fault . Leslie took advantage of my trust and abused it in every way , she also ruined a good friendship between her and I . I'm not going to sit here and lie god I'm still having a hard time forgiving leslie for what she did to me as well what she has done to Jeremy . God I just want to thank you so much for Jeremy and him being in my life , he tries so hard @ everything he does - He's a good man who has had so much craziness and drama in his life but he has come such along way in the 8 yrs we have been together , no he's far from perfect but he tries so hard to be a good husband and provider and I know that in your time he will be a good father . God I just ask you to lay your hand on Jeremy and I , help us to communicate better as a couple , help us keep our temper's from getting out of hand and we end up saying things that we don't mean . I know that there is a reason why all of this is happening to us, even tho lord I have yet to figure out why all of this happening to us but I know god you have an order for everything - I know that some times we have to go through things inorder for you to bless us and I guess right now is one of those times so all I can do is believe that you will work everything out in your time but I will say this as a mother especially as a mother it's hard to be patient and believe that everything is going to be ok simply because I miss my little boy so much , I miss hearing his little sweet voice and the tone in which he says mommie , I miss his smell and holding him in my arms - because right now my arms ache for him so much it's not even funny but most of all I just miss him in general . God i'm trying so hard not to break down and give up but it's so darn hard . I still don't understand why Leslie did what she did , god you are the only one who really knows why she did what she did and I'm sure you will revel that to me in your time . God all Jeremy and I want is to have our family & that includes William , that's all we want is our family , we've waited and worked so hard the last 7 1/2 yrs so I am asking you god help us make that dream come true . In Jesus name, In jesus name , in jesus name Amen

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