Oh I'm so exhausted. I've barely had my usual 8-9 hrs of sleep since last Thursday when I recieved the news that my son's Temp Guardian Leslie and her girlfriend / partner went to DSS and filed a complaint against Jeremy (the man whom I've been with for 7 1/2 going on 8 yrs, stating that Jeremy who has been more of true father to my son William, threw my son William through a wall when he was 2 1/2 yrs of age, along with other claims that he sexually molested my son - he's controlling, mentally unstable, a drug dealer as well as a drug addict. To say the least jr and i have done nothing but rip and run all this week and past weekend - we've been over to my mom 8 times since last wednesday . Jr and I have a 4pm appt with the head director of DSS, Jr and I are going to ask that William not be placed with Leslie's 1st ex husband and his wife - we're going to ask that he instead be placed in a Temp christian foster family who will work with jr and I , that away we can still be involved in every aspect in William's life- make sure he gets the proper counseling he needs- ect, we're going to ask that if this is poosible that William is to remin the temp christian foster family until jr and I get our 2 bed room 2 bath room trailor- then once that is established , William can finally come home, until then there needs to be a middle ground..

In other news jr called Animal control and asked them if they would come to my mom's house and take all 22 of the cats including the two momma cats, jr explained to the man my mom's situation, her health problems and that she is wanting to clean the house out and try to fixed up some what so she can sell it and move into an assisted living- So monday all 22 cats are gone, thank god!!! amen praise god. Jr then made the phone call to GDS asking them how much it would cost to rent on of those construction dumpters they use when they clean out of house- So @ the first of June Jr is going to call back and get a dumpster to put in the bag yard @ my moms , from there him his twin brother Jason , his older brother Robbie and Jr's only sister Jennifer along with Jr's twin brother's wife Tonya are all gong to start from the bottom of my moms house and work their way up, cleaning out the whole house- my mom then is going 2 try to fix the house up some what, so she can then sell it and move into an assisted living.

Now even in the wake of all this crazyiness with my mom and the whole mess with William Jr and I are still pressing on about starting our family - now alot of people might think we are crazy but jr and I fully believe that no child is a mystake, we are also aware that the devil is testing us right now and if we allow him into our minds, telling us if you have a baby , things won't go right, you can't do it ect ect, jr and I know if we allow the devil to hender us from pressing on and starting our family then he's won, but he choose to turn our ear to god and totally put our trust in him , we'll be ok- so jr and I have decided to press on and know that god will deliever William into a better environment, even if he's not able to be with Jr and I permently in our apartment - we truly feel that god is going to deliever William from the situation that's he's in right now , we truly feel that god is going to revel the truth about these accusations that being said by Leslie and her grilfrien Amber, stating that Jeremy abused William, sexually molested him ect ect- Jr and I fully believe that god is going to send us our little miricle- so there for we just have to keep trying and praying , because @ the end of every test the devil throws @ you there is a blessing waiting on the other side.

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