I know that there is a reason god gave me ADD- I know that there is a reason why I love ( Jeremy the man whom I've been with for 71/2 yrs) I know that god put us together for a reason - even tho some times his ADHD can be more demanding on me , than my own ADD . I know that god blessed me with my son William for a reason - I know that god has a reaon for everything , even tho some times I don't understand what's behind that reason .

I know god has put apon me challanges in my life just as part of who i am but I'm so ready to have a some what normal life. I'm ready for my mom to get her self out of that house- get her self a 2bed room 1 bath trailor and instead having stairs step on the trailor- she can have a ramp so there for she can leave the house alot easier when she go out to do arrons. I'm ready for my mom to move closer to Jeremy and have her tranportation worked out to where if she needs to go some where she can , with or without Jeremy and I taking her- she can gain her indpendence back - I"m ready for her and I to reconnect as mother and daughter - instead of me just being her care taker- Now I still don't mind every once n a while doing a sink load of dishes- if she lived in a trailor I would have no problem doing a sink of dishes- I would have no problem taking out the trash, or vaccuming real quick but I don't have the energy to keep cleaning the house that she's in currently - I love my momma with all my heart- I don't like living where I'm living, all the way out in the country an hour away from my mom in that big hudge house which is a mess- I'm scared she's going to slip on all those magazines she has ( to say the last my mom is a magazine addict what can i say the woman loves to read) any way I'm afraid she'll slip and all on all those magazines shes got all over the house and break a hip - I would personally feel alot better if she were in a trailor out towards where Jeremy and i live , even her being 15 minutes away would be alot easier in its self . Im ready for my mom to be in a nice , clean comfortible place , where she pays rent in stead of a killer morgage- she doesn't have the stress of that big hudge house- she can do her own dishes, or cook her self a meal - she can really get into her hobbies . I'm ready to be @ ease knowing my mom can take care of her self just in a smaller place . I'm ready for Jeremy and I to have our own family - I'm ready for to get my son back in my arms and removing leslie and that whole toxic relationship from my life all together - I'm ready for Jeremy & I to have that little boy that we've waited 71.2 yrs to have ( Jeremy and I have already taken a leap of faith and just started trying to have a little blessing of our own ) We trust that god will take care of us . Even with all the crazyness , and the ADD/ ADHD OCD world Jeremy and I are pressing through because we know that god is going to bless us if we just stay in his word and listen to his word.

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