Please go to your hospital (and/or have you husband take you), even if it is the emergency room, and tell them what you are going through. Tell them you are severly depressed...to the point that you have no desire to live. See a psychiatrist and get a thorough evaluation please!

My 19 year old son had a breakdown about six months ago....long story short, what we thought was ADD wasn't! He also has had trouble sleeping. Now he is on two medications and one of them has helped him sleep like a baby for the first time in years and the other has lifted his depression! Now he is starting to put his life back together and regain his confidence.

Please do not worry about what anyone thinks. You may have to look at it like a major illness like cancer....what would you do if you had something like that? You would go get help/treatment. I do not know your financial situation, but if there is any way you can put other things on hold while you get yourself together, it will be well worth it in the long run. If you HAVE to work, please allow yourself to decompress after work each day and do whatever it is you need to do to restore yourself and try not to feel guilty for not accomplishing everything you want after working all day. Try to tell yourself that, right now, some things will just have to be let go while you take care of yourself.

Life is not a race! As far as energy goes, I do know what you are talking about. I had cancer a few years ago and I struggle with energy still. For whatever reason, we all only have so much of it and we need to know what our limits are. We can either make ourselves fit our lives or make our lives fit us! Super human energy and strength is in the movies.

Do you have a good friend or family member you can call anytime to "vent" to? I do not know what I would do without my mom, who I can just call and ramble on about my day or whatever is going on with me. With her, it is safe for me to complain. If not, there are probably hotlines and of course, websites/blogs, etc. Bottled up emotions, being overwhelmed, stressed-out, feelings of guilt/helplessness and having too high (or too low) expectations do not help either.

There is a really good set of tapes (they are a bit expensive) that are helpful:

Attacking anxiety & depression with Lucinda Bassett

But first, please, please go get help!

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I have an online journal with a password lock. It really helps to just write down anything and everything that is on my mind and I do not worry about any one reading it. It really helps!

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I did have my thyroid checked - I am taking medication for that now, which does help my energy level. Thanks for the advice on that! I think the rest hinges on depression meds.

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The good thing is you are voicing your emotions! Bravo! Now find a good LD doctor, get on your meds, and talk with your parents and get therapy from an LD doctor!

We are all here for you!

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Hi cutey. Look a new job and buying a house is very stressful. Besides getting Married and Death. Those two items are very stressful. I have depression too. I had a job for 15 years and I worry about loosing it because of budget cuts and the economy. I keep messing up because I am so emotional. I also feel very lonely. But your family really wants you to be happy. Because if you are happy so are they. Other than the whinning that kids do at times. But that is another story. Just writing this is making me feel better, because I realize I am not the only one that can't turn off that switch off on my brain.

I would like to recommend two things. Have you heard of the Secret Society. That is the secret of power of attraction. It really works. There is a movie you can get called "The Secret" you CAN NOT rent it at Blockbuster. I got mine at Books a Million. Check out the library or the internet. Watch it and Watch it and Watch it. Even put it on when you go to sleep and listen to them It will make you feel better. It is worth the money.

The other thing I recommenD is a book called "The Four Agreements". I review it on a regular basis. Actually my depression is on right now. I think I will read some pages and turn that stupid switch off. This is not really a self help book it is a lifestyle. It teaches you that your thoughts are really your upbringing. How you were raised. Sometime your parents tell u things because they believe it but it actually isn't true. But if you were in another culture it would be totally different. Sometimes your brain lies to you. My brain lies to me. I have to realize that its is lying and I am not really that bad. Realizing that your thoughts are lies helps turns off that switch. I hope I helped you or someone else.

Remind yourself your thoughts are just lies. They are lies, lies and lies. Don't believe them. Turn those lies off. Do you want to turn that switch off. Just tell yourself your thoughts are just lies. It is the evil one that is on your shoulder and he is being a brat and telling your lies. that lier. go away. Love Marie

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djwb said: I don't know how to organize anything, I don't know where to get help. I can't coordinate anything in my life to get help. How is someone with ADD supposed to help themselves when they don't even have the energy to organize their pills? I only have enough energy to go to work and spend all my energy there. After that, my brain shuts down. I have nothing left for my family. I have to go to a conference in Chicago soon, and I'm pretty sure I'll be working 10 or more straight hours each day. And I'm not going to be able to do that. Not only that, but this is a new job, so I'm going to be lonely. If it weren't for my children, I would have ended it by now. I don't enjoy my life at all. Not one minute. We're getting a house pretty soon, I think, except that the loan lady keeps messing up the numbers. I'm excited about that, but not as excited as I could be, like I've been in the past about things like this. I have no energy, no patience, no happiness, no joy. I just need someone to help me, and my husband has too much on his plate already and is sick of me crying all the time. We just moved recently from our hometown, where our family lives. Now we live 2 hours away from everyone. I don't know what to do. I just want to enjoy my life again.

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