I cannot seem to stay on any kind of exercise or eating plan to save my life. To make matters worse, I am a cake decorator, something I'm very good at and love to do (and would hate giving up) and so of course, those no-no foods are in my hands (and too often my mouth) all the time. I cannot bear the thought of putting on MORE weight (my depression meds have caused a 30+ lb. weight gain in a year) but seem unable to "not eat" some cake or frosting, and then I am overcome with a powerful sense of urgency to "get rid of it!"

I also go through the same sort of thing with shopping. I feel so much better if I buy something, and then return it and get my money back, than if I'd just not bought it in the first place. Sometimes, I try to trick myself by putting an item in my carriage, toting it around the store while I continue shopping, but then handing it back to the cashier at the checkout and telling her I don't want it after all, because that makes me feel like I've saved money somehow...the fact that I'd added it up with my total bill and now I'm subtracting it. Why not just leave it alone to begin with??? Does anybody else struggle with these issues? I am desperate for connection and for some help from others who truly understand and don't judge. Thanks!

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