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| Missy1988 |
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finishing my GED and going to college.......eek...im scared!!!
hi yall, my name is missy. im new on here so im trying to figure everything out... ok so about me....im ADHD, severe social phobia, and manic depressive bipolar. i also have type 1 diabetes and hypothyroidism. i take more pills than God. i dropped out of high school 3 weeks into my senior year. i was suppose to graduate in '07. well i was not diagnosed with ADHD but i was for bipolar. i had really bad depression (still do someimes) and well.....i couldnt handle being around all my friends anymore. big crouds in the halls. anything.. the typical i cant do my homework because i cant do it by myself. it was to hard for me. well right after i dropped out...i took my english writing and reading GED. i passed just barely. i failed math, social studies, and science. they were so hard for me. i couldnt focus. at this time i still didnt realize i had ADHD....i wish i would have known and gotten treated earlier. i want to do good in school i want to become a Biochemist. i know big right! with a learning disability and i cant even pass the simplist GED tests. sigh.....my plan as of today....i have gotten GED books for science math and socal studies......i also picked up a biology book and gemomety and english grammar and also a algebra book. cost me a billon dollars. anyway....i take my life an hour at a time. most people take it a day at a time but i cant do that. im on ritilin 10mg 4 times a day. and a bunch of bipolar meds for my anger, aniexty and im about to start a MAOI in 3 weeks. im just a messed up girl. i was terrified in school i would be the quiet one in the corner sleeping b/c i felt like there was no point. now im almost 20 years old. and i cant be on Social Security Income for the rest of my life. i have to do something with it. now in my mind.....i feel that if i study hard enough i can get a lil bit ahead before i go off to a community college. then to a bigger college....but this GED is terrifying. what if i never pass it. im going to bwe going to classes. i want to do something with myself. i want to feel accomplished. i want to get over this ADHD and depression. being manic is hard. i just dont know what to do....i feel that i will fail. that i bought all these books and im not going to study them because my fear or failing is so great in my head. i want to acheive my goals. but i have so many. oh and i have such a hard time managing my money. i spend it all in 5 days. then my mom covers me the rest of the month. sigh...i am a failure. i remember in school when a test would come i would panic so much i couldnt even read the words right. i skip over words i try to slow myself down but i cant because i looose intrest and my mind starts to wonder when im reading about something important that i need to memorize but im thinking of a totally different thing. how will i be able to study right and remember when i go off to college and when i study these books ive bought. i want to improve my reading skills well really all my subjects. im sorry this is soooooo long im just telling yall whats going on with me. i dont know what to do with myself. sometimes i overwhelm myself so much with what i have to do today or tomorrow and i dont get anything done. it sucks. i feel like i cant do anything. i just dont know if i can do this. get my GED go to college. i know i need to make sure my teachers know im ADHD and all. but what if they dont help or care?...... what should i do? anybody feel the same as me? have the same problems?? help me. |
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| JenATCinAL |
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All things are possible with God
Missy - You're going to make it. Study for that GED (if you haven't already taken it) and get your butt into College. Do what it takes to succeed. ENVISION yourself succeeding. Eat Well, Sleep well, Exercise regularly, Spend time with people who are positive and appreciate your for YOU. I have found that a lack of an exercise plan -- a RIGOROUS one -- can have very negative impact on ADD - especially when it is compounded w/ BPD. EXERCISE. Pray to whatever higher being you believe in. (Or find a new one if you've lost your way). Good luck and God Speed. Keep us posted of your SUCCESS. |
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| classdistraction |
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it's always easier to hide... but it'll get you nowhere.
i know exactly how you feel. i don't have bipolar, although i grew up living with someone who does, so i know a little about it. I do have ADHD, and i'm in the process of being tested for learning and mental processing disabilities. I'm a sophomore in college... although i'll probably be here 5 more years.. i keep failing.. but one of the good things about ADHD is that i just don't give up. i fail the class.. i take it again.. (one class i had to take 3 times) one problem with ADHD.. i make the same mistakes the second time.. so if you fail the GED test.. just take it again... TRY to study more the next time.. even a little extra could be enough. anyways, i'm probably not the greatest to be giving you advice, when i'm stuck in a similar situation (now i just feel hypocritical) but i guess i can say i feel for you.. i understand. you really want to do well, you don't want to acomplish nothing in the day.. it just passes by, and nothing gets done. i wish i could honestly tell you what to do, or how to follow the advice of others.. but if you're anything like me, self-discipline is next to impossible. i guess just try not to get too down on yourself. it won't help. if you're stressed, and you're not going to do your work anyways, why not just forget it for a while and watch some tv? i guess just TRY not to do that every day.. or for hours on end.. |
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| Andy |
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persistence
Hi. Completing high school or a GED is very important in our culture today. What one does after that depends on one's interests and options. A college degree does not guarentee a job is waiting for you. It does not mean a person will have job security. Having a niche that can set you apart from the herd is helpful. And for some people I know they have chosen a trade school of some kind. It may not get them the top of the line job, but it gives them a skill and a step in a direction and a foot in the door. Based on that skill and interest and honed abilities, they've done on to earn a degree. But it cannot happen with out the high school dipoloma or GED. I have been dx with ADD since Dec. 2007. I've had ADD all my life. I'm now in meds. What I've discovered is: I used to spend most of my energy trying to pay attention and alert. Now I don't have to work as hard on that. But I've got other life style practices and issues to work on. I have a Masters Degree. College and Grad school were hard for me. I didn't "get it" when it came to the book work and tests -- even though I loved what I was doing. I worked hard to be average and get Bs & Cs. I quit thousands of time. The #1 character trait in my family (for generations) was "bull-headedness". I was not going to let the course work beat me. Also in college, I had a bad drinking problem. (that is another character trait of my family.) I've learned now that booze keeps one even more unable to pay attention. It was a solution that helped me to cope with my problems. But I lost so much time, lost so many friends, and who knows how many opportunities. Drinking like that was an unhealthy friend. I don't believe there are easy answers or solutions to ADD and other forms of mental disorders. But I know that there are ways to work with it so that it does not render a person completely unable to funtion in this life. Yes, meds are good tools. But meds alone will not fix things. I am learning that. I wish a pill was all I needed. I cannot find solutions or ways of doing things differently on my own. I need coaching. I'm trying to learn not to be so defensive to their criticism. (Old habits die hard.) I've lived with this for over 40 years and I've developed some deep patterns (or ruts). It will take persistent work and a willingness to learn new behaviors for my life. To the young lady who started this thread, don't give up. There are ways to treat and to work with whatever problems and/or diagnosis you face. It will take persistence to complete the marathon you are now running. But please remember that this marathon is going to be for the remainder of your life. Don't give up! |
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| Dee |
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deterimation
Hi,
Good luck |
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