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| HighVoltage |
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Questioning Diagnosis and Treatment
I have been officially diagnosed with ADD. Twice. The second time (last year) I had forgotten all about the first time (14 years ago) until the doctor said something that triggered the memory. Even then the details are foggy. The first time I tried Ritalin in various lower doses for a little while, then sorta forgot about it when our second child came along. The second time I was a little more intentional about following through and tried everything they threw at me. I have one drawer in the bathroom that looks like a pharmacy. I have tried everything and all I get are sleepless nights, the jitters, and other side effects. The net positive effect of any medication has been zero. Zilch. I have also tried neurofeedback. They claim an 80% success rate in treating ADD cases without medication. I must be in the other 20%. After spending 8 weeks staring at animated computer screens with electrodes hanging from my earlobes, my "high beta" numbers didn't budge. The doctor and the technicians there keep encouraging me saying, "your numbers look great! You are doing so well!". However, I am an engineer. I work with numbers all day. I practically eat numbers for lunch. I recorded and plotted all the numbers from the 8 weeks and the result was a flat line. I would hardly call a flat line "doing great". Any other medical device showing a flat line indicates trouble. A flat line from a heart monitor means you're dead. I think very few people would suspect that I have ADD. I have no "H", as in "ADHD", in fact I am one of the most laid back people around. I am also, by many societal measures, successful. 20 years in the field of electrical engineering and seven patents are pretty good window dressing. So why am I complaining? Why am I spending thousands on treatments that don't work when I could just sail on through life as I am and just forget about this ADD thing? Because the frustration is at times unbelievable. The number of distractions that our society deliberately pipes into our lives is one of the big frustrations. Case in point is the new "wellness center" that was just put in at work. It's a great facility. Stair steppers, weight machines, nice showers, all the trappings of a first class health center, and I can't stand it. When using the stationary bike, there are three big screens in view displaying three different TV channels. And the music being played drills through everything. I feel like a hopeless channel-surfing junkie with my finger permanently stuck on the channel changer button, unable to lock on to a particular channel, but always distracted and drawn by what's being displayed on the next screen. I stopped going. My need for physical health was having adverse effects on my mental health. I just couldn't see exercising with my eyes closed and my ears plugged. I get a fair amount of exercise anyway because I am a naturally active person. Conversations can be difficult, particularly in group settings. If there is another conversation within earshot of the one I am involved in, my mental radar tries to lock on to that one as well, no matter how hard I try to avoid it. The result is a loss of train of thought and the conversation dies. I have this amazing ability to walk away from a conversation and remember absolutely nothing five minutes later. Many other elements of "classic" ADD describe me to a "T". I am a hopeless messy, and things laying around often don't even register on my consciousness, to the ongoing frustration of my wife. I am a great starter and a lousy finisher. I have an untold number of projects that I have started and never finished. I lose things. I am highly intuitive. I don't play by the rules, largely because I can never remember the rules. It's much easier just to invent a solution to a problem than to solve it by the rules. I have been working on coping methods for years and I suspect that they will always be a struggle. I have a PDA which I carry around most of the time. I'll keep a to-do list on the PDA, carry the PDA in my pocket all day long, and forget to look at it. If I make it beep periodically, the beep eventually drives me nuts and I shut it off. My email inbox will sometimes grow to over 1000 messages. Then I'll get on a clean-up kick and clean them all out. Then it slowly grows again. Maybe it's just a lack of discipline. Many days I'll tell myself, "Today I'm going to be disciplined, today I'm going to be disciplined," and get to the end of the day and realize that nothing of any substance has been accomplished. To be fair, it's not all gloom and doom. I have had some successes over the years. One coping mechanism I have used extensively is to keep a blank pad of paper next to my computer at work and jot down my thought processes as I go through the day. At the end of the day, this gets scanned into the computer, along with any other memos, lists, data, etc that I have used during the day. I keep this on the computer organized in folders by date. I have tried various software programs which are supposed to help capture though processes, but have always gotten wrapped up in the details of running the programs, which was a distraction from the information I was trying to save in the first place. It's a bit ironic: I am surrounded by computers all day long but still use a pen and paper to track the most important information. But it works. My wife says that living with me is "an adventure". I'll have to admit, we do get into a lot of different things in a very big way. I do fear sometimes that I will wear her out. I've read a lot of success stories. Stories of how so many milligrams of so-and-so made a huge difference. What I don't hear about is the less successful stories. Stories like mine where so many milligrams of so-and-so result only in insomnia. It is the lack of success that sometimes causes my to question my diagnoses. To be sure, both diagnoses were made by licensed and respected psychiatrists, but the diagnosis itself is made more on a rigorous series of questions and answers than by some more seemingly objective test such as a blood test. I could go on and on, however, I need to end this somewhere. Is there anyone else for which the traditional treatments for ADD (and even the non-traditional ones) did not work?
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