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I'm an RN too
I'm an RN too...well, I WAS one--now I'm a stay-home-mommy of 2 little ones. I "retired" at age 28! lol
I didn't know I had ADD until a couple years ago, and boy did that diagnosis shed a lot of light on the difficulties I often had as a nurse--especially in the hospital.
I was almost always overwhelmed with way too much going on at once, too many things to remember that actually did have Life/Death importance...I'd get so stressed out that I couldn't keep everything straight and I used to wind up in tears frequently. It felt like I was always in "panic" mode, trying to be so diligent to prevent missing anything, yet no matter how hard I tried to remember and coordinate everything, (and we know that in Nursing, everything HAS to be perfect or else a patient could die!) I just couldn't seem to hold it all together. And I felt horrible about it, because I really WANTED to do a great job.
Prioritizing properly, organization, and returning to things I was distracted from were things that I really struggled with. Having things constantly changing was overwhelmingly chaotic for me.
I really disliked the politics of dealing with management, in general. Early in my nursing career, I interviewed for a position on a sub-acute floor of a hospital. (A 15 bed unit with one RN and one Assistant) I was offered the job, and I accepted it, happily--it would have been great for me. When I showed up to begin, I was informed that I would be working on a really acute Medical floor instead, NOT the Sub-acute unit. (She had completely deceived me, as they were apparently desperate to staff that medical floor!) The floor was always understaffed and the nurse:patient ratio was usually too high, etc. Often they would spontaneously float a nurse to a different unit for a shift, which scared the hell out of me. I remember being sent from my regular Medical floor to pretty intense Cardiac floor, and it was horrible; I didn't have the Cardiology expertise a nurse needed to do a good job there, but they didn't have any concern for me being in over my head--it really stressed me out! I was completely miserable for about 6 months, and then I insisted they switch me to the sub-acute floor or I was leaving. They had a policy that a new hire needs to work on one floor for a year before transfering, but I insisted that because THEY made the "mistake" in putting me on that floor, they better straighten it out or I'd leave; they agreed to transfer me to a Sub-acute floor of the affiliated Orthopedic hospital. That was better for me, and I worked there for about a year and a half. Then one day the manager there floated me to a Post-op floor, where I was responsible for a large load of highly acute patients--several of them requiring blood transfusions, tons of PCA's, and tons of IV's, etc. I was overwhelmed with it, and was terrified of ever going there again. A couple weeks later the manager wanted to float me to the main hospital, to the Cardiac unit, but it ended up the unit didn't need a nurse after all. I turned in a resignation letter and left hospital nursing altogether at that point!
I did homecare for a while after that, and really enjoyed it a lot. The first position I had was the "RN Supervisor," and I would drive around (listening to my music all day!) to make supervisory visits with the clients to make sure the assistants were doing a good job, do physical assesments, etc.
My final job as an RN was also in homecare, but rather than driving to multiple clients I had just one client, and did direct hands-on care with that same client each shift. It was great in that I always knew what to expect, and I was able to develop a great routine which enabled me to be very efficient. I also liked the "home" aspect of it...I wore comfy clothes and walked around in socks, and really got to know the family well. I loved that part of it! The drawback was that it could be a little boring with the same old routine, but I liked knowing what to expect, and I made up for it by bringing lots of interesting reading material and music. :) [edit: I just remembered one time when I set up my ventilator patient on the vent before I went home, I heard the next day he was having some breathing trouble in the middle of the night...turns out I FORGOT to turn the oxygen on! ARGH! He was ok, his mother noticed it quickly. I'll never forget how scared I was to realize I had done that, though.]
Basically, I LOVED the patients and I was very good with developing therapeutic relationships with them--my personal attributes of being caring, compassionate, and friendly were a perfect fit for Nursing. On the other hand, my difficulty with prioritization, organization, distractablity, etc made Nursing very difficult for me at times.
My plan now is that once my kids are in school...I'm going to become a Lactation Consultant! I already know I'm gonna love it!
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Last edited by Amy Alison : 11 Feb 2008 @ 9:30 AM.
Reason: Of course I forgot some stuff the first time...
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