On my way to work this morning, I listened to the same song on repeat for 30 minutes straight. This was not unusual.
I never thought my addiction to the repeat button was related to my attention deficit disorder – I just always get hooked on one favorite song and hyperfocus on it -- playing it over and over until I'm sick of it. But when I got home and told my non-ADHD sister that I downloaded this new song and loved it so much that I listened to it over and over she said “God, that’s so annoying why would you do that?” My ADHD brother said he always does that too, and he doesn’t think it’s annoying at all.
Later tonight, I was running a few errands at the mall and I went into the store I work in to return some clothes that didn’t fit (of course I didn’t try them on before buying them). I was walking around shopping when one of the girls who was working said, “What was that, Bekah?”
“I didn’t say anything” I replied. Then I realized – maybe I did say something, but it was just mumbling to myself. After that, I caught myself doing it all night. Wandering around stores, looking for my car in the parking lot, while I was driving home – talking out loud to myself.
Hey these are on sale!? I think I parked in this row. Where does my dad want me to park?
I suppose it could be worse; it would be even stranger if I was carrying on a two-sided conversation with myself. Still, people must think I’m crazy or something.
And then there are things that I know are ADHD – like getting up right as I’m about to finish a blog because my keyboard looks really dirty and then spending 20 minutes cleaning between each key with a Q-tip. Or sitting there for 10 more minutes even after I’m done writing because I can’t think of something funny to say at the end and I know my aunt will be looking for the funny ending.
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